Monday, March 16, 2009

First time

I am by no means a writer, I just want to share (and get off my chest) some of my private thoughts and feelings with the world. So let me start by saying:

I am on a journey of self discovery. I have been distracted from who I really am for quite sometime now. I have been cruising through my life on automatic pilot, watching the scenery change and feeling ambivalent about it all. I enveloped myself around a certain person and allowed them to consume my true being. I obsequiously followed them and took on their thoughts, feelings and emotions as my own. I thought that was what love and marriage was all about - I was wrong. Now, eight years and some children later, I wake up and realize I do not recognize who I am, what I stand for or how I truly feel about anything.   

So, I ask you (and myself), where do I began?